Knocking on heavens door

I thought I’ve got the life I always wanted
But now I know my life is squandered
I did it myself, it’s not your fault
Day and night I'm falling in a cry assault

Please, believe, I really want to love you
But I can’t be perfect in things I do
I cry for help, but there’s no one who hear me
To be good enough for you, is all I want to be

I cry for living water, to drive out the pain
But there's only sadness running through my veins
I'm knocking on heavens door, crying to let me in
But the only thing I feel, is fire on my skin

An angel gives me some water
But the only thing I hear from hell is weapon clatter
Hell couldn't find me, but that takes no longer anymore
'Cause I'm helpless and tired and don't know what I'm fighting for

That's why I'm knocking on heavens door
But heaven's still not open, so what I'm knocking for
Please, open that doors, so I can be alive
'Cause I don't know if I will survive

I can't survive any longer this pain
It feels like poison is running through my veins
I ask myself what I'm living for
But still I'm knocking on heavens door