Becoming Everything I Am Not

I try to breath in the air
Become one with my surroundings
To feel like I'm not here
Fade deep into the mountains

I'd like to turn to sand
Descend from my existence
And no one to pretend
They have any oppinions

It will fade away
No more days
All fading away
No more faith

May it all turn to sand
My oppinions
My knowledge
But I can't

I'll just remain in this limbo
Eager to know and to forget
Wanting to build up
And break down all I have

Numbing myself every night
dilating the time I have left
Untill I get my rest