The fight against pain

I wish I knew why it came to be
where the pain and sorrow was meant to be
Every day is a fight against myself
Against the pain, it became so normal to me

I let the world believe that i’m well
Smilling is the keyword
No one knows whats behind the mask, I put on
How much fear and how much pain

Sometimes I tell people , how I feel
But never the truth , never the real story
The last months I have not really lived
I become a shadow of what I've ever been

Probably I never knew the reason
I can only hope it’s gonna be better in the future