I don't

I don’t wanna be the girl
You know her with tears
I don’t wanna be the girl
Who has the most fears
I don’t wanna be a fool anymore
The time has changed a lot
I don’t wanna lie down on the floor
It’s hard to forget, no I can not
I don’t wanna be lonely like before
I think I don’t have the faith to believe
Because in my head it’s like a war
Maybe It’s better if I leave
I wanna change everything
Everything so it’s good
I wanna shine like in spring
Everything as it should
I wanna have a smile on my face
Like when I was a little child
But for me is that a tough race
It’s a long time ago for the last time I smiled
I’m loosing myself in my own life
It’s kind a hard to find it
It feels like a cut of a knife
Now I’m building my selfconfidence bit by bit

awa : 01-01-2009