Realised too late

I begged and cried,
I acted and tried.
I fought for my life,
I took the dive
Into the deep blue sea,
I wanted to take you with me
But that wouldn´t be fair
Because I know you do care
I´m strange that I do not
I used to, a lot
But after a certain time,
Everything I did was a crime
I changed and so did my view,
It was supposed to happen, it was my cue
I finally found peace here
I don´t have that constant fear
I accept the things I have and had
I realise my life wasn´t that bad
But it´s over now and all I can do
Is wish the best for you
Make sure you live lovely and with happiness
I will try to clean up your mess
I will make sure your dreams are full of joy
I will make sure you live your life to the fullest, boy
Just because I didn´t.