what should...

things are changing, so fast
there are so many things in my head right now
that i don't know where to place it.
maybe this is above all my fears
and i don't know if i can face it

i will try, and i will fight against it.
i'm reading things that i actually shouldn't read
it's maybe a long time ago,
and maybe i shouldn't worry
but what if it doesn't belong to the past?
i don't know how this is supposed to be
i don't know if i should ask