The words not there

best not to speak, best not to wonder
better to play safe, swallow your pride
rather run away, leave those words unspoken
even if it means, that inside you die

the questions asked remain unanswered,
as the words are turned away in fear
stuck in my throat like a chickens bone
as they cruelly take my last breath away

why can i not utter those much needed words
that trouble my soul, and darken my heart
in my mind i spoke them a thousand fold
and not failing them even a single time

but face to face as i look in her eyes
my courage leaves me, in a moments touch
so how can i be, what everyone asks
if i am still looking for the words not there