Can't come back

I know that you're far away
You can't come back home
I know you are not gonna stay
but still I feel alone

It's hard for me to breathe
Cause a fear is taking me.
It's hard for me to sleep
It’s to heavy

I am trying to relax myself.
but you leaved my side.
Missing you is the hardest thing in my life,
It feels like I am denied

I am lost,
You don’t came back home,
Loving you wasn’t enough
And now I’m alone