friends

Friends,.,

When do you know if two people are true friends?
When can you trust somebody?
When can you let somebody into your heart?

i thought i had a friend,
a friend i knew for a few months
appareantly i was wrong
because he hurt me

i can still remember every move.
every word and deed

i didnt want to
he didnt listen,
he did what he felt like doing

he thoughed me.. he did with me what he did

i always felt so big, so strong.
i could win from a guy who would try to do this
i thought i could.

i was so wrong

my voice.. it had no sound, i could not make a beep
my body.. it felt like a bag of sand that couldnt be moved

but i won, not entirely
but i overwon!

i remember his smell, his left arm that was so scary
it was just a bone, no fat, so thin
i bit in it and ran away,
but the harm was already done.

therapy, talk about it, wright it down..
that would be the sullusion.
maybe it was,
or maybe i just was strong enough.