I don't want to kill you

Hopelessly ignorant you are
No idea of what you are or aint to be
So small, so tiny
In my body you hide yourself
Just a little thing you are
Not exactly there, but not dead
My decision is to be
You have no idea
Maybe it’s you living wish
Or could this be your death sentence
You little thing
No one knows of youre existence
Just a phantom you are
What should I do
We are so connected
I couldn’t kill you
I couldn’t
But I cant have you either
You would die of nectectiation
What would be better for you
To live a life of disgrace
Or to not exist at all
I’m scared to say
But I guess the last
So sorry
So much regrets I will have
But I have no choice