Darkness in my heart

So still, in the middle of the night
My thoughts go towards you
When I always want to see you, but that moment not so much
Still see you caring but my number is still blocked

How can I forget you, how can I go on
Your name still in my head
So much left unsaid

Danny, why, and more importantly, what happened
I need to understand
Because forget you, I just can´t

So still, but my thoughts loud as the thunder
Your name the lightning in my heart
I fall apart

If I could just talk to you one more time
But brave I am not
For I cannot even call you on the phone
I have never felt so alone

I figured there must be something wrong with me
For so much time has gone
But for me it is not done

Why can I not forget you, Why can I not move on
I just want to see
Please God help me face the darkness in my heart
For the lightning is blinding me