Strenght in life

‘Let go of your past’, they say
As if it is ‘easy’ to just forget it and walk away

It burns, it hurts, my pain is real
Memories became scars that I can’t seem to heal

A year ago, I tried to take my own life
With the thought of everyone judging me, I felt the depth of the knife

I have watched my own blood flowing out of me
As the only thing I could think of was ‘It’s okay, I’m going to be free’

I have been left with traumas while I forced myself to fight
So please, don’t ask me to let go of my past or telling me everything is going to be alright

I know all that, I just don’t know when
But, what I do know is my pain will forever be my strength, especially when life decides to attack again