Here I Lay

Here I lay

At ease
Feeling
Dreaming


Here I lay

My heart pounding in my mouth
Broken
Letting out an abated breath


Here I lay

Pressed against the surface of my bed
by the weight that is my past.
Contemplating whether or not to go on


Here I lay

Listening to dark songs
Reading cancerous poems
Trying to figure it all out


Here I lay

Hoping there's someone to take care of me
To love
To be


Here I lay

Crying
Trying
Failing


Here I lay

Heartbeat fading
Giving up my ghost
Leaving


There I lay

Cold
Stiff
Pushing up daisies


There I lay

There I end.