How I live now

Hiding and crawling
Calling for your name
Building layers and walls,
In empty halls
Trying to fight the pain
I mean common do I even have a brain?
laughing, crying, screaming it is all there
I only can survive by breathing the same air
Missing you and kissing you, most of it exists in my dream
Mostly I scream and try to figure out the theme of my dream
Lack of energy, lack of life
It’s honestly no surprise
Always tired, always faking myself, I hate it all
I feel so small in this hall with this high wall
I don’t care if I am alone
But then I see those who are especially for me shown
It’s all an illusion, I know, I can feel it, I can see it , I can know it
It doesn’t want to make me quit
It makes me free
And that is the key