staring down the barrel

I am staring down the barrel
of the gun called 'mistakes'
all the chambers are loaded
one pull is all it takes

I think of what I will leave behind
but then I think of what you said
'You have never loved me'
those words kept echoing in my head

Daniélle, I have always loved you
why do you think I am on the brink of
breaking down into tears?
you have shown me how it is to give
but you have become one of my fears
so there is not much left for to live