I'll crash

Sometimes something snaps inside my head
I can't explain what it is
Can't escape the feeling I get
My mind starts "scanning" the environment i'm in.
Searching ways to hurt myself

I've used knifes, beercans, liquor
I thought I wasn't that creative
Apparently I was wrong

Lastnight, I drove my car for the first time alone at night
I was so proud, so happy
Suddenly
My mind went blank
My feet felt heavy on the gas pedal
Tears started falling down for just one reason

I know, one day
I'll crash