as I lay here sleepless

as I lay here sleepless
I think back to my past
how stupid I acted
how messed up I was

I think back to you
once the girl of my dreams
but now the girl
for who my heart screams

the water drips softly
on my window at night
I look out, think back to
my life with you at my side

maybe I made a mistake
but your love already died
there was nothing I could do
there was nothing i could have tried

as I lay here sleepless
I think for a reason for life
the water is still falling
as I take another dive