Drowning far, bloody scar

Whenever I am sad,
Whenever I am broken.
Whenever I am feeling worthless,
I only want a token.

Whenever I'm trying,
My hardest best to stay.
Whenever I'm crying,
I only have my tears to drown in away.
Far away from home,
I have to face it all alone.

Whenever I think about giving up,
I'm already knocking at Heaven's door.
I don't know why I'm still here,
Where the fuck did I do it for?

Why do I still exist?
Why am I still alive?
The answer is on my skin.
I have the scars to prove it,
That only the strong survive.