Emptyness in the Winter

I am in between doubt and fears
Fears of the emptyness I feel every day
The silence I sometime hear in my ears
The words are empty, I cannot say

This is a part of me,
That I always had
The intense desire to feel free
And in the same time feeling sad

When the winter comes, I know
The negative thoughts also arrive
The beautiful white snow
But sometimes I don't feel alive

I try my best to be positive,
To be the woman I want to be
Do how I want to live
Just want to feel free

But I know this is a part of me
Sadness belongs to my heart
Without sadness I cannot feel free
Life tears me apart

So when I have this moment of sadness
I realize and feel that I live
Without sadness no happiness
Love is what I want to give

Limited by the rules and things in my life
I try to make the best
And try to feel the positive

I dream my life away,
Trying to imagine how a perfect life would be
That I could forever stay
At that moment, and feel totally free