the consequences of a depression

I keep smiling, because that's
what I've been told to do
behind the smile everything is
breaking apart in my soul

noticeable by the pain in my chest
I cry, cowering in the corner
of my once so safe room
but now it has become a battlefield

A family torn apart by the fight
trying to rebuild what was once so dear
I sit here crying and full of regret
thinking about all the things I have done wrong

What did I do to deserve this pain?
why me, and not the bullies in my life?
another tear drops in the slowly filling void
as I am still stuck in this depression